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Monday, November 30, 2009 3:16 AM

Bored at home as usual. Ah damn, the homework. I really want to try finish them asap, but I am too lazy to do. zzz.

Gonna watch 2012 with Ben and others later (when I wake up)! Happy! =D
Lunch together too!

Somehow, I really feel that I am redundant in this world. Besides that, I cause many people to be upset because of me, angry because of me, worried because of me.
Being born into this world is already a very big mistake, yet I continue to disrupt people's life, making more mistakes. If I hadn't been born into this world, wouldn't the world be a better place? Or in other words, woudn't you lead a more peaceful life? (Sometimes, you have to agree if you think carefully. )

17 years have passed, going to be the 18th year already soon. An ugly duckling is still an ugly duckling :)
No one wants to mingle with him, because he is just too ugly.
When he dies , he will just be left dead there and ignored. Perfect ending.

Geez, my phone returned back to normal! LOL. In the sense that it keeps vibrating now and then. (Got what I mean? Haha.)

Anyway, I feel like going out. With who? I don't know.

You know what, I am tired. Really very tired if this goes on.

I am now in JC, making me a lifeless person. A stupid person as well.
Temper has also gotten from bad to worse, which is something that I don't like A LOT.
You won't want me to be like how I was when I was in Pri/Sec school years where I can become so violent until there is bloodshed. (Ok I love that. lol)

I have hatred towards my Dad. And it's very long already. From Primary what until now, I hardly talked to him, and to me, whatever good he does is actually a bad thing. I call him a useless father and because of that, I quarelled with my mum so many times. Oh please, he only knows how to earn money, and when I am having the exams, he doesn't even know.
AND, I hate everyone on the paternal side. I hate visiting them on CNY. Yucks la please.
I won't ever forgive him. Maybe I will, but not so early.

So I am being hated everywhere, all the way until now. Seriously, if you hate me, you don't have to pretend to be nice to me at all. Tell me if you really hate me. I will get over it in a few days time. Eh, by the way, I am hating no one at the moment.
AND AND , I want to mention something.

I am not smart. Just because I got top in class for Chemistry (wait that's not the main point), doesn't mean that I can confirm score for Chemistry. Don't see me like a Chemistry pro and I bet, if I fail the coming test for Chemistry, people are going to laugh at me. Giving me that "Chemistry pro" title will only make me more stress = higher chances of my downfall. So people, remove that impression of me from your brains and see me like a normal person, who is rather average for all subjects. Ah I like that .
And I don't get it why people ask me "Har, your Maths only get B ah?" -______-
I am only expert at gaming :D

One last thing.
I don't understand why people like getting involved in so many school stuff, especially during the holidays. Holidays are meant to be enjoyed la , stupid. I am currently enjoying myself (ok not really , but at least I feel so not stressed at all ! )
- I am not referring to you Irish . LOL!
JC life is really so boring. Poly life so fun right? Thats what I want you know -_-

REALLY BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD LEH. TODAY WILL BE THE WORST COS MY SMS PARTNERS GOING MSIA FOR ONE DAY. =(
You will see my phone so dead la. Smsing other people are like wth, they won't reply all of a sudden, which makes me feel real stupid for sending a sms. =x

ok ytd joey came to my house for dont know what. LOL. She came at 8pm and left at 10.30pm.
Remember play L4D ! HAAHAHAHA.
Oh btw, my L4D is giving me problems already. Start game 1 min later, auto kicked out. Sian.
So, I am gonna rot at home for the next few weeks, until people ask me out.

Boring. I really hate headaches. And I seriously need to start doing hw NEXT week, or else I will have no time to study for the stupid exams when school reopens.

Lol, i nowadays nothing to write. OK la, I kept playing L4D and Audi. Paiseh Ding Hao, yesterday never go to his house, and someone seems to be angry....Hais..

....


I guess you were right.
Let's hope so..
Thanks..(:

Please don't mention the past again.
It's torturing me.
Full of guilt...


I caused his misery. =/

Nothing to write for today. LOL.
Lazy to type down my thoughts today. Gah. -_-

Game Client Patch on 24/11

Dear Clubbers,

Please be informed that there will be a game client patch on 24 November 2009, Tuesday, from 0830Hrs to 1430Hrs (+8GMT).

The Game Service will be down during this period. Please logout safely to avoid any loss of items.

The upcoming patch includes:

* 100+ New Avatars
* 7 Popular Songs Added!
* 3 New Faces
* BibiMooMoo Pet!
* Crazy 9 Mode!
* New GHM Plaza Map
* New Peach Emoticons
* Command List

- AuditionSEA Administrator

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE =DDDDDDD

As you can see, i got 2.9k exp. HAHAHAHAHA. :D

THERE THERE. I AM RANKED THIRD OK. =D

Ok, I have nothing to write already. Hmm, good luck to those who are taking the re-examinations later! :D

Ah, I haven't touch my homework yet. wtf.

Oh , yesterday Joey and Jared came to my house =D
Played a bit, chatted a bit. And they are pigs. grr. LOL.
So actually L4D can cause people to vomit and get fever. omfg lmao. =x

ok, i met some stupid people in Audi in the afternoon ytd.
So retarded~ I shan't talk to these people cos i have to match their intelligence just to talk to them , which makes me really stupid. Sooooooo, ignore! Simple.
Losers are just losers. Sighhh~

The end! =D

Yesterday went to Paranormal Activity with Noon, Agnes and Isaac at Vivo. It was somewhat scary for me, because I thought it was an incident that really happened before. But I just got to know it was fake, so I was like...aiiiiiiyaaaaaaaa, no big deal.
This movie then is not really THAT scary after all. lol !
And hor, the person wanted to check our ages before letting us in. HAHAHAHAHAH =x

Left Vivo at about 10. Home sweet home~ !



Ignored. =(

After sending that sms, I teared.
It was the first time that I teared over something that I wouldn't really care at the moment.

But it's no one's fault.
I have told you what I want to say. At least I felt relieved.
Promise me that you will do it. =)

So on that fateful day,
I finally heard it.
You know, I know, we know.
But I am willing to let it go,
for I trust you. =)

Back from chalet yesterday!

1st day 16/11/09
Had GP remedial from 9am to 3pm. Wtf. And it was super boring. Was chit chatting like throughout the whole thing? HAHA.
After that I went home 1st, then met Dean at Outram MRT. Train-ed to Aljunied and his dad send the both of us to the chalet! :DDDDDD
Soooo, we actually got the wrong place initially. It was BUNGALOW 11 and not TERRACE 11. Haha. Played L4D a while and chit chatted. So first day was rather...hmm.. okok la. Not say boring. Because of the slapjack thing. LOL xD
Slept at about 4 i think because the movies are boring. Cant really rmb. Joined Agnes' rm with Ding Hao and Dean.

2nd day 17/11/09 + 3rd day 18/11/09
Woke up at abt 10.30am and played Wii with...(I can't rmb who) LOL.
Jiaqi cooked Indo Mee for the early birds and it is super niceeeeeeee. I would want to lick the whole pot leh =x
Then also got bee hoon. I was the one to finish it as well. -_____-
So, the class went out for lunch, while I stayed in the bungalow ALONE cos I was too tired. x_x
It was rather scary, and I didn't know how I manage to sleep. Slept from 1 to 5? Haha.
Then I forgot what I did. LOL. Ohoh, we saw the lizard trying to eat a dragonfly. Wtf . eew.
Ate Japanese curry(?) and it tasted just nice. Not sure who cooked it though.
Drank Jolly Shandy, Co something , AND I DIDNT GET DRUNK. HEHEEHHEHEHEHE.
The percentage of alcohol is rather low btw. -.- THANKS TO SEBAS MAN. HOHO.
Inital plan was to nigt cycle, but was cancelled due to the rain. Lol. Actually I don't mind tandem..
Idled around, and played that werewolf game after I bathed. Super fun! :D
As a class, went to some beach at about 1.30am hoping to see the meteor shower. But we didn't manage to see.. sooo, WE SHOULD USE GOOGLE IMAGES LOL.
Left at about 2.30am, then me and a few nocturnals slack in the living room. Most went to sleep after a while.
I drank a LITTLE BIT of Vodka, and i cmi-ed already. Wth. Isaac face became red , while Dean and Ben seemed to be able to hold liquor well! x(
Played Taboo, watched tv.. blabla. Stopped everything at abt 5.45am (wtf?! LOL) and sleep.
I didn't sleep though. I did household chores (HAHAHAHA) and only at 9am then I sleep. Blame it on the cosy bed when I saw Ben lying on it, and I decided to lie on a similar bed near it.
Woke up at 11.30, with Guan Zhi asking me if I wanted to leave wif him. I didn't leave wif him, so watched the others play Mahjong. Left with a group of them at abt 12.40pm, with Agnes who actually managed to hop onto the shuttle bus. So the group of them went to eat, while I train-ed back home wif Agnes.
The end. =(
I admit I was rather sad when I leave the chalet...Haiz..
I didn't regret going to the chalet. Love all of you! =D

*I don't think there are going to be much pictures as well*

P.S : I am Xiao ming's killer. LOL.

I got a new comp nowwwwww! Wee! The specs this time are pretty good. I like. :D
Thanks to Ben for helping me ! (In many ways ok)

GP remedial later. Fuck it . zzz.
So I am going for class chalet? =/

1hr ago, I just came back from Nat's birthday party. I enjoyed myself there. Heh :D
Sooooo, me, Agnes, Isaac and Noon were the first 4 to come. We came at about 5 though (I think).
Ohya, we helped to lie to Nat that Ben is really not coming for her bdae party. Haha!
Then Ben gave her a surprise by his sudden appearance. So sweeeeeeeeeeeet ! =x

Anyway, played that Werewolf, hunter game later. (Idk wat's the game name)
Ok, I sucked at that game. There's no need for you to repeat so many times. -.-
Then we realise that it was getting real late. I nearly missed my last bus!
So I have to thank Lin Ken for accompanying me take 970 back to Commonwealth. He alighted slightly earlier than me though. Haha.

So, that's pretty the end, I guess.
And I still feel uneasy. Real uneasy about that...water...
But why do you throw ppl into the water? I don't get it. Don't they suffer from trauma or anything? (Ok , this is ridiculous) . It was a long story behind all this. . gosh.
Just hope that no one will be thrown into the water during the chalet (If i go). I really feel...wtf. =/

OMGWTFBBQ. I just love tis song and the MV.

I find myself so weird. I don't understand why I tend to think that way at certain times.
Probably that's my character, I can't really change.
Hmm.. =/

Later maybe meeting Ben and Ding Hao go Nat's party. But then Noon asked me if I want to follow her. Since we taking MRT, maybe the 5 of us (including Agnes) can go together? I dont know.
I have yet to ask Ben. xD

Oh, i may be getting a new comp on Sunday! Haha. Hope it's still there..
All rights, I got CIP stuff later. So ... bye~!

Soooo, yesterday I went to eat at seoul garden wif my sis , Jared and Joey.
It was okok la. Not VERY nice, but acceptable. Then spent $50 on a few stuff here and there.
Total change in me ok! All will get to see it on this coming Sat. Haha.

Aiya, I very lazy blog liao. LOL.
Whole thing is about eating and shopping all rights!
Tata!



Why must you be like that?

OP was ok, I think? Did not do as well as expected for yesterday. -.-
Anyway, my H1 Project Work for 2009 A Level has officially ENDED. WAHAHAHAHHA.
Of course, I have to thank my groupmates for this PW journey.
Although the whole journey is tedious, but I learnt something , and also experienced many stuff.
Thank you Wei Xin, Jocelyn and Guan Zhi ! =D

Another piece of good news:
I NO NEED TO RETAKE BIO BECAUSE I GOT AN E. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~!!
Me and Meibin were like going crazy cos we initially thought we needa retake bio, but in the end we don't need to! Haha! Hi-5 !
Yesterday was actually rather enjoyable for me .
The only thing that spoilt my mood is that GP remedial thing. 9am - 3pm? What are they gonna do huh? -.-

Anyway, I suddenly don't feel like going chalet, for no apparent reason. =/



Queen, King , Ace.

OP TOMORROW . HAHAAHAH -_____________________-
And then my hols! :3

Ugh, I am rather pissed with myself over something. LOL.
Oh well, going back to audi! Bye!

Ok, damn bored. I did nothing again. Oh well, I really want to start on my work soon -____-"
OP TOMORROW OMFG. LOL.

Gonna lurk around in Audi 1st before sleeping.
Tada! ^^

Another day has passed. Haha. OP in 2 days time!
Slacking a lot at home, doing nothing much.
Initially felt like doing hw, but brain couldn't function properly. So decided not to. Maybe later in the afternoon i will? =x

Anyway, i am rather bored at home again.
Felt like going out at times, but I dread waking up early to go out at times. LOL.
Well well, this week I am rather busy after Wednesday. =D
I'm done for now! Bye! Audi time LOL.

P.S : You'll do well xD



I understand how you feel.

Yesterday had 405 class PRE gathering. So only about 1/4 of the class went (expected) and we sort of enjoyed ourselves at orchard yea? Haha.
The actual outing/gathering will be on next month. We are still planning , so do stay tuned! :D

Homework, homework and homework.
I am getting out of breath. It's still so tiring even during the holidays..
I want to enjoy life now, because no one knows what will happen to me tomorrow or maybe 1 week later or whatsoever. I dont wanna study anymore! =x



Making A Lover

Last day of school yesterday. It was seriously fantastic (for me at least).
Early in the morning , had OP. Choo choo say i finally improved and reached EE standard. I was so happy ! :D
But I am afraid that I will not perform as well as yesterday on the actual day itself, which is this coming Wednesday. Because got other class ppl =/
Nvm, i gonna memorise again and again. Just to refresh my memory!

Watched "Meet the Spartans" and "Bolt". Played and fooled around.
Impressed by how Ben plays L4D. His comp no lag one . T_T
Nvm, I will buy a new graphic card ASAP OK. :D Then we all share money go buy L4d 2 !!

Somehow, I felt rather sad leaving school yesterday. Because I may not get to see some people again . Because 09S07 may not have the same 22 people again. Because we cannot enjoy like how we did for the past week again. Argh.. =(
I really wish everyone goes through this journey together..
It's the holidays I know. But is it actually worth enjoying?


Hi-5 ! ^^

I think yesterday was great. Really really great. Watched Ben play L4D, and the girls who scream at the sight of a zombie running towards the in game character. LOL.
So today is gonna be the last day of school. Dont know why am I having this feeling as if I am leaving this school already.
Probably because of the thought of people getting retained/going overseas to study etc..
I don't know . =/

Anyway, 4th rehearsal for OP later. Worried again as well, but I am not doing anything to it . Gosh.
Ohoh, btw, I have started to play L4D ! BUT ONE THING, MY GRAPHIC CARD SERIOUSLY SUCKS AND IT IS LAGGING THE WHOLE DAMN THING. SPOILT MY MOOD LA. -_-
But I still do play it . Thanks Agnes for lending me the cd . Hoho. :D

We should play together some time. With Ben and others? Haha.

OP yesterday was ok for me? Haha.
I actually 4/6 for each section. Good or bad? I dont know. My groupmates all get 5 for awareness and clarity leh. -.-
Hmm, I actually made a serious mistake, which is I put my left hand into my pocket while presenting. I didn't even know until the 2 assessors tell me. Wth. I seriously dont know -_______-

Ok, later is free day again! L4D !! =D
I scared of the sound effect at home though. LOL. =/



I felt it. :)

I haven't prepare for later OP. Omgz. My group is at 8am de, which is the first thing in the morning. Ahhh. T_T
Hope the Q & A wont be difficult . Presentation wise is ok de. Haha.

So I am ending here since I have nth to write liao.
Tata~!

Yesterday A level chinese was.. I dont know? Initially, I thought it was an Ok paper, but after realising I got sooooo many different answers from the others, I totally lost hope.
Oh well, no point getting B, C, D , E. No one cares, I guess. Aiming for a pass is everyone's wish, INCLUDING MINE.

So that ____ called me again. Wtf. My mood totally spoilt because of him. _l_
Ahhh, and I am still unhappy about it . cb -.-

Anyways, got to know that Justina drooped out JC and is going Poly. I seriously didn't know that, and I was calling to ask her what's her opinions abt the paper, and she told me she stopped school already. oops. =x
All the best for your Poly life! I bet it's gonna be more interesting and fun, unlike mine. =/

Hais, these few days have been playing Audi, REALLY DIDNT DO ANY HW.
Do I have the mood to do? Answer is no. No point when a stupid person does his work -.-
Going off now.
Bye.

Nth to write again as well. Hmm, I feel like rotting at home for the next few days for no apparent reason :S

Chinese A lvl later, and I am super worried now becos I read my chinese tb like magazine, meaning I went to read every chapter for fun, without bothering to know which word i don't know. Hah -.-
I doubt I can have my break, really.
Go and enjoy. I have to suffer, unlike you.


Remember the days..~

Newspaper collection was FUN , I admit. LOL. I know so few people there ! Now I know who is Joseph and Anderson liao. hoho.

I am rather tired now. Gosh. Someone keep calling me yesterday. Irritiating leh. =.=

Hurhur. Poof!