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Thursday, July 30, 2009 11:47 PM

Fucking CCA just spoilt my mood. Now I go for ONE thing le, FINE? zzz.

Today my mood seemed to be okay. Funny thing is the GP teacher, he was like sleeping already when he was giving us the lecture. LOL la. And then got one class came in , when he was about to finish it already. He asked, how we actually tahan for so long.
GOOD THAT YOU KNOW. THEN SOME TEACHERS SERIOUSLY SHOULD STOP BEING SO UNREASONABLE. I am not a robot, by the way. A human is doing these work.
You complain tired, we never say anything. We say tired, you gave us alot of bullshit. zzz.

Anyway, had a chat session with HZY. I think I had really made a wrong choice coming to JC..
Whats the point? I dont get it too. Coming JC just turned my life upside down.
...........
I studied for the sake of studying. It shouldn't be the case, as he said.. Isn't my career doomed then? I will be seriously be a Maths/Chemistry teacher as my last resort. -.-

Ah, saw Mrs Leong on my way back. She still rmb me! :D
Chatted for a while until my bus came. Still as pretty huh! LOL.

Finished studying Alkenes~ ! Gonna do tuts now.
Till then..

Not gonna force you.

You know..I dont want to blog about unhappy stuff everyday.
People will say that I am seeking attention, for sure. There are bound to be a few who think like that.

I dont know why, I am feeling so distracted and troubled nowadays.
Things become more complicted as days pass. I tried to solve them, but to no avail.
..
I also realised people can be that cruel at times.
They were hoping for me to suffer, break down, do all sorts of stuff. . Why , I really wanna know. Perhaps, I should ignore such people, they are sent to Earth to just mess up my life. Freaks.
You really made me hate you so much. Every little thing you do , seems to irritate me now.

I have decided , let's continue this game of yours. I tag along.
I will make sure you will suffer double of mine.

OMG, I FINALLY UNDERSTAND DENG'S PART.
But not Jiang and Hu, so I have not fucking finished the ppt.

Damn.
I am tired.
*Yawns* ~

Ah, FML.

Why must so many things appear at the wrong time and affect me at the wrong time?
Seriously, dont make me depressed or troubled for now. Thank you for your understanding.
If you want to force me until I become crazy, by all means. I have been wanting to quit school, and go into IMH to fool around.
The people there are much nicer.

17 days more!

84 days more!

Sleep sleep! XD

Dont miss me plox.

Because I wont. LOL.

Lublub Trigo. Omfg -.-

18 days more!

85 days more!

Her facebook status was meant for me, I guess..
What did I do wrong? I mean, seriously, you dont tell me, but you just continued to give me the cold shoulder. And when I asked, you just plainly said nothing.
Sometimes, it is hard to believe whatever you said. It gets deceiving , and it disturbs me alot.
You just wont understand. . Why.. ?

AND,
I dont understand why I have to encounter some stuff that shouldn't happen at all.
Maybe is I think too much le, but it gets really obvious after a while, and probably it is hinting me to.... Hmm..=/

Anyways, Chinese test already GG. I slept during the test. wtf.

Lalala~ Look at the time now. Goshh. Tick tock.
I am only slightly tired. I have still smth urgent to finish, but I think gonna do later at night bahs.

My ankle still hurts. Rawr. I want P.E (only when there's playing, if not, no.) !
Oh, later got Chinese test at 3.30pm, I need to sleep seriously. I shall fk off from the comp now! LOL.

Lubdieyou the two Js. :D
My N and B , I lub lub you two too. HAHA.

You have changed

Seriously.

19 days more!

86 days more!

I am like having some runny nose now due to the throwing of pillows around. LOL. -.-
On Saturday, my 2 dearest came to my house! We did so many stuff. Hoho.

They left me at 10pm . ):
I am gonna fly to their hse soon enough. HAHA.

Love ya.
Woohoo~ Gonna chiong everything when I wake up later.

Alkanes test screwed. Chem Common Test was ok.
Maths test result was ok.
Everything seems ok.. and Esther frightened me today. =.=

After school, went to do CSE.
I still dont understand the whole damn thing, and I am smoking my way through eh . zzz.

I lost. ):

They are coming later! Yay! :DDD

It's over.

Ok, back to everyday post.
So... School was great. Everything is still the same. What more can I expect?
Listening Compre was terrible. Qn 9 was the most stupidest mistake I can ever make. Actually, I dont really understand that part anyway, so .. ):

And thanks Miss XXX for that chat today. Yea, you should know what I am talking about.
And you should know who you are. Haha. (:
But I am still at a loss. LOL.

Oh great, Esther wants to check our tut tmr. And I havent do. -.-
Gonna do EoM and maybe half of WR now. Cya !

I shall wait.

It takes time..

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Finally, I can smile a bit.

Sometimes, you have to do everything a step at a time. The more you rush, the more easily you will get yourself into trouble. That's common sense I suppose? Haha, i am stupid.

Well well, I got to see my sunshine again. But why is it that there are still so many dark clouds..?
It's not over, I realised.
It's not that simple.

Omg, blogspot is having some weird problem now? -_-

Life is as per normal. . .
You know , I really feel like giving up life now . Dont use comparison to convince me. I sometimes dont get what is the whole purpose of it.

For now, I am still lost in this maze.
It gets very tiring, and since I doubt I will get out, I can stay in there and await for death. . (:

Why why, is it a game after all?

Sprained my ankle. Yes, it's pain , but nothing can be compared to my pain in my heart.
No one can understand, even with the help of my good friends. They couldn't really help . They tried, but it is not helping me at all.

I have lost my own friends yet again.
Oh why, i believe that the spraining of my ankle is my retribution. Yes, Heaven has punished me. Punished me for all my wrongdoings on you two.
It seems that, somehow I have lost that link already. I no longer have those close close r/s with people in my class anymore. I have lost them all.
And it was me, who caused it all.

It's all useless now . No one believes me anymore. This blog is not trustworthy anymore.
I tried to mend but.....
I didnt know that a small little phrase can cause such a big mess in my whole life. It wasn't meant to be targetted at them at all. I don't understand..

I fking love them.

I am really in a state of confusion now.
I dont know what I gonna do for the next few days.
Sometimes, I really dont mind staring blankly into space for hours. It really calms my mood, and then I can think properly.

Is it my fault all along? And no, I am not blaming anyone here.
People who know me long enough, should really know that I am hot-tempered, and I cannot control my emotions. I am rash, aggresive and tend to do many kinds of stuff, like a crazy person. I even dared to hit my parents already..
I am no longer angry or anything, I am very tired already. I really would want to quit interacting with this complicated world of mine. Everyday, I get bothered by many stuff. Same unsolved stuff. A few days ago , I was still very happy, that finally, it is all over. I have gotten back what I ought to have it in my hands. Now, what again? For now, I have my 2 loved ones with me..

I have failed again. I failed to understand the complexity of the human nature.
I dont want the same thing that happened last year to happen to me again. Please.

So, I have been stabbing myself all along unknowingly...

It was only 5 months, my dear.

And yet, it resulted in such a mess.

I am very , very very happy. LOL.

In the morning, met up with cy to go binbin's hse to do CSE project. And we only finished one paragraph . HAHA. Left the hse with 疯女人(SF). HAHA.
I GOT SOME FUNNY PHOTOS OF 疯女人. AT THE PLAYGROUND. =x

Ok, boarded 970 to my "2nd home". Lol. On the way, I saw the twins and Tyrus.
Tyrus' ankle is real bad. Do take care man.
And twins, dont miss me! xD
When i reached my "2nd home" , it feels good to see them again, especially someone whom I have not seen for ages. LOL. STILL THE SAME ONE.
AND PICTURES ARE UPLOADED ON FB ALREADY. :D
I left my loveees at 8.30 pm , which is like so late. -_- Managed to reach aunt hse before 9 . Heh.

They are coming to my house this coming Sat !! =D
People, please do not arrange any other stuff on this coming Sat for me. I will be so busy. =P

Seeing them makes me happy,

but not you anymore.

Because you and your partner

backstabbed me.

Gp test doomed. I wrote nonsense, ok.. My examples are all like crap. LOL.
Today also got my progress report. okok lo.
Maths block test got a fking 44.5/65. Come on , laugh. -.-

I have many things left undone. And I am damn lazy to do.
CSE, EoM and GP are my most urgent things for now..
JC sucks.

So do some people.

Fucked up.

No, I am not emo-ing or what. I am just very pissed off by some people.
And I am utterly disappointed with them.
I am not joking. I am still angry.
Really angry.
I cant believe it..omg.

My judgement

is totally wrong..

I am left with nothing now.

Today, I am happy for once. (:
I have finally cleared all misunderstandings with him . But it's really my fault all along. I really had many bad intentions in my mind.. Evil plots. Heh, I am evil ok. But you can forget everything just like that? You made me so speechless..
Let bygones be bygones, as we had said earlier on. I have gotten back a good friend of mine, and definitely I won't want to lose him again. I truly meant that he is a great friend of mine. Hahaha. I wont ever forget how we know each other. Everything seems so coincidental, but i believe it's all fate. Dont you agree? =P
Somehow, I dont treat the 2 of them as my friends only; they are like my siblings.
I am certain that the 4 of us will always be together, and never be separated.

I love the double J's
One is like my younger bro, another one like my smelly sister.
And not forgetting my own real sis, whom I really love a lot. ♥

Aren't I fortunate? I believe I am. (:
Thanks a lot.

Sometimes, I really do hate myself so much, so much until I feel like quit doing everything, and die peacefully at home. I want to die.
I have suffered well and enough in this inhumane world. I have good friends that really love me as a friend, and I would like to thank them a lot. All these while they have been with me , which i am grateful for.

But I am tired.. now.

I love my double J's

And N & B. =)

I am useless right?

Oh great.

Dont bother me anymore.

Sorry, I am very troubled.

I finally understood what he and she meant.
But what can I do? It's all fated.
I thought, all will be well and fine, but I didnt expect that it could turn out to be like that.

Really, for once, I think that I have stepped into the wrong class.
Sorry.

You have abandoned me.

Leaving me in this emptiness.

Why did you change..?

I am getting more and more emo nowadays.

But overall, i am to blame. I dont want to regret ,seriously.
I have no idea when we will really meet again..in my next life? Lol.
I am so satisfied to know a lot of great people in this world, no doubt they had made a change in my life. I really want to thank them all, so many of them..
Without them, I would have perished from this world. . .

Because I love them, that's why I cry for them. It's not even 1 year of separation yet. . But I just hate that feeling . A lot.
In 2 years time, I am gonna experience the same thing again. It's so hurtful ya..?

Went for QSS Asthetics Night. It was really fun, met some ex-classmates. Really missed them a lot a lot. I find that the finale could be better a bit, lol. Overall, not bad!
Btw, Jinny is a bad guy. I hate him. I want to remove him from my fans in facebook. I DONT WANT SUPPORT HIM LIAO. *^R%&@&*&@.

Nahs, just kidding. I will confirm support him one. :DDDDDDDD
See, happy a not? (Provided that jinny actually read my blog)
I SUPPORT YOU OKAY.

After the concert, idled a while, then went back home with Asveeny.

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I stood outside the convention centre. It was crowded at first, but now, it has become so empty and quiet. I saw Ms Jo. Leong. I was very happy, have not seen her for quite some time. Saw some of my ex-classmates too, like Gary, Jo, Uno, Aldy, Tyrus etc. Seeing them just made me feel happy, somehow. But when they slowly left, one by one, it really pains a lot. I nearly teared, but obviously I held it back. It's like , one day we are together, the next day we are separated again, and we would not know when we will meet again. Given my busy and hectic school life, it is difficult for me to go out or hang out with them. It gets really very depressing.
I love 405 lots lots. I love every single person in 405. But time is so heartless to actually separate us..
How I wish, we will be in class together again, somehow. Sitting in that usual rows, Justina will be shouting all about, the boys taupok-ing Gary, Jessica's grp being so quiet, Hai En getting bullied, people running all about, Tyrus singing, Eddie crapping...
I know I kept writing the same thing over and over again... Dont remind me of it. I miss the days, ok..?

I wont deny that my current class is good. They are also a bunch of fun people!
I can just socialise with anyone of them la. And the best thing is, I CAN BULLY SOMEONE. =x

Oh well, my feelings are so mixed up now.
I am tired.
Love you all, 405 people.
Same goes to 09S07.

Guess what?

I really want to kill some people. I mean , I really do. A cleaver.

Oral has made me feel so dulan. Stupid topic. I seriously think Jiaqi's topic is the easier one.
I dont know how to say about Student Exchange Program. And my reading, stumbled a lot. GG?..

And I dont understand one thing.
Why do ppl apologise when they have actually inflicted that amout of damage on you, regardless of it being mental or physical? I dont understand the word "Sorry". It is like often being used wrongly in some cases. Gah, whatever. I am talking to nonsense. I am just venting something out at the same time.
From Pri sch till now, many bad words have been used on me.
I should be numb by now, but why am I actually bearing a grudge?

Beautiful ending.

Wa, I found so much fun creating surveys for my PW . LOL!
Shit, I have yet to finish Alkenes! And I self-attempt questions already dont know how to do. Wtf. -.-

And my fucking computer is so unstable now. One day, it may just be gone like that. So restarting for nothing la. -.-

Oh , I forgot my A lvl chinese oral is today. zzzzzzz. Gonna do abit of bio tutorial first. Bye!

Chinese compo. Omfg.
And I am very tired. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Fk it.
Stupid GP wasted hours of my time, and it's a lousy copy. Wtf.

Nothing to write. Haha.
DONT KILL ME PEOPLE!! @_@ I LOVE YOU ALL. LOL.

Wei wei should watch this! Made me laugh. xD
Instead of SNSD Girls' Generation, become Boys Generation. (If I am not wrong?) Lol. They sang Gee btw.


Things to do :
1)GP Essay
2) Chinese compo
3)EOM
4)Tutorial 7 of Maths
5)Read through Chapter 8 of Maths
6)Alkenes Tutorial
7)CSE Stuff

Ah wtf.

I miss her screams.
I miss his singing.
I miss his nonsense.
I miss her beatings.
I miss her crappyness.
I miss his way of doing things.
I miss her jokes.
I miss his laughter.
I miss..
......
.........
I miss everything about 405. ):

A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.
-Elbert Hubbard

One's friends are that part of the human race with which one can be human.
-George Santayana

I was bored. Haha. I am gonna go Asthetics Night this year. I miss Queensway . ):
Thanks Jinny for helping me buy!

P.S : Why so many ppl having fever??! Get well soon eh! But some is ownself find trouble one. Haha!

Sometimes you just made

me feel so redudant

Am I really a pest

or a friend of yours?

Hi readers, I am gonna post everyday again!
All my block tests are finally over! And now only wait for the miserable results. I totally no confidence for Bio leh. Wtf. I all write wrongly , partially cos I cant seem to recall. Wed was Maths test, Thurs Chem test, and Fri is bio test + GP content retest. My GP is confirmed pass already, as I completed about 2/3 of the paper. LOL.

My targets for the Block tests were all at least B, but I guess i have gotta change a bit.
Maths - B
Chem - C
Bio - S

Like that can le bahs. I wont expect too much . o_O
SPA is also coming soon . omfg. A lvl Chinese oral next Thurs! @_@
I still have a pile of hw to do! EOM , GP essay, zuo wen..WALAOOOOOOO. I want to do tut 7 de. =x
Ben and Nat are gonna kill me if I really can find time to do Tut 7, which I WILL. Nehninehni poopoo!

PW . PW.

It makes my life worsen somehow. It's the indivdual part. EOM. FUCK.