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Saturday, October 31, 2009 1:43 AM

Gonna go for newspaper collection later! (With the CSLs WTF) -.-
A level Chinese in 2 days time. Omg. I wan TRY to get that A. My chinese is not as powerful and strong as huiling, lihui, cy and many more. Grr..

Anyway, I am already in holiday mood. Hahahahah. But needa study . Fuck it.
I am tired of this la. China Studies until NOW, i still don't understand. And you expect me to do a project? Isn't it going to be killing me? No one teaches me, because I am SOOO SMART. =.=
See, I am gonna fail my J2 work very badly. Bio another one. Hais.. It gets pretty sucky when people become selfish and refuse to teach you. =/
Oh, i have Bio re-exam. So you all smart people don't have. I have. :)

Ending here
Tada!
Noon saw Esther today.. T_T

P.S : Happy Halloween to All ! Especially SuZu. :D

Don't know what to write leh...
Oh, yesterday was my 2nd trial of OP . And it was great! (Well, at least for me).
They said I have improved and my body language is my major weakness. (Ah, knew it!)

Anyway, the teachers are crazy by giving us so many homework. Let me list down all here.
Chemistry:
-Carbonyl compounds tutorial
-Inorganic chem tutorial
-1 whole stack of worksheets from the 1st chapter until halogen derivatives? (Cant rmb)

Maths:
-Questions , questions and many questions for chap 7,8,9 and 10
-Practice paper for 2010 Lecture test 1
-Tutorial 12

GP(I DREAD THIS THE MOST) :
-1 Essay
-2 Readings
-1 Compre

i seriously hope there is no more. .. oh wtf.

I am super nervous for later OP la. Damn. I have not prepared hard enough I think.
Hope the whole thing will be smooth later. I am seriously hopeless if I can't get it done well for later OP. Second trial already and I am still like that.
All I have to say is...

BYEBYE TO MY A FOR PW. =(

How I wish I won't have to retake my Bio exam, but it is quite confirmed I am taking it already.
Hi 5 to Meibin! LOL.

I give up. I dont want to memorise my script already.
CCA is killing me. Wants consent form from us but never give? How stupid can they be?
....

Tell me that it's not true.
You aren't leaving, right?
T_T

Somehow, I felt that I am starting to gain back something, but at the same time, I am also losing something.
Something that can be so precious to us.
It was something that I would not have expected.
"Five Minus One" or "Four Minus One" -- I really won't want to experience it. But.. I understand..

Actually I have quite a number of things to write, but I am rather saddened now.
Seriously no mood. Gah.
(What the hell, just nice an emo song is playing through WMP)

Oh well, I can't do anything about it though.
geez. =/

Omgzzz. I loved that chat jus now , with Lin Ken, Agnes and Noon.
FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ALRiGHTS :D
Nocturnals FTW!

geez, i am tired -.- (from laughing)
BYE!

I HAVENT BEEN TO ION .
I HAVENT BEEN TO CHANGI AIRPORT TOO.
AND MANY PLACES WHICH IDK

BECAUSE NO ONE BRING ME GO THERE. T_T

Went to eat dinner with one of my aunts and cousins! It was a sumptuous one. Haha. I kept eating the meat balls. Super nice la . LOL. :D

So Noon intended to give me brownies ytd, but I was not at home. So later will be my FIRST time eating brownies? Haha. Thanks ahhhhh!
I am gonna sleep now. Because I am rather tired , which should not be the case. Zzz. I should be playing Audi now la . wtf.

BYE !


Truth vs lie?

Let pictures do the talking :D
*Click to enlarge*

Finals in competition!

Look at the Megas! LOL.

Winnn!

I want brownies! hoho! LOL.

Went to Harmony Centre with class yesterday for Learning Journey!
Rather fun over there , learnt quite a few stuff. Haha.
The trip back to school was the most fun, I guess.

Hmm, my perception of a certain is starting to change.. A good change!
And I am happy of it. Hope it will stay that way. xD

BYEBYE!

Haha? I needa retake my Bio exam during the holidays. What the fuck?
And I am still irritated by it. So those who CONFIRMED no need retake , don't keep saying that you MAYBE will need to retake, which is like a 0.00001 % chance only?
Only me failure type should start complaining la -.-

Nothing much to say liao.
Lin Ken was super disgusting can..? LOL. After bio lecture was er hem.. -_____-

Tada!

I don't know what more to say.
I just know that I was about to tear when I read your post.

Sighs..

OP sucked for me yesterday. Seriously, I don't even deserve a ME at all. It should be AE btw. I know all of them were trying to like make me happy or something..
Thats why, you all must tell me truthfully ! Then i can improve ma . Haha. Q & A was terrible for me too. Gosh. T_T

I wanna go sleep now. Geez. BYE!

You know what?

I feel so stupid. Stupidity to the max. I have been trying to figure out what's the hidden meaning behind certain words, and I realised that it's about me all the while. So, now everyone hates me?
I won't mind. I don't deserve any pity or compassion please. Those ugly masks of you all, really irk me alot. Stop it.
I was seriously wrong in my initial judgement. Utterly disappointed.

So..
I bet you all are thinking "Why beat about the bush?"
Here's my main point then.

09S07, thank you SO much for letting me know what is worse than a suffering in hell.
I thought enough was enough, I thought everything calmed down, but now, it seems to have worsen. Anyway, the class is splitting. I had heard many stuff here and there, and of cos I won't go around telling the whole world about what he or she said.
And lastly, I won't be going for any class outing anymore. It serves no purpose after all.
I will still pay for the class chalet, but I won't go.
I know I will miss out a lot of fun, but I don't fucking care already. The bond has broken.
I don't deserve any trust too. Right?

Guess I sounded too harsh. . ? All right, there is a handful of people that I really never regret knowing them. (:

So readers, if anyone of you belong to my class, go ahead and hate me.
I don't need you all to survive anyway. Fuck off all right?

I gonna do my OP stuff now.
Bye.

I am trying to be optimistic..

Won couple competition the 2nd time again. Luckily, i chained x14 for the semi-finals or else would have not gotten the medals. And then for final round, we vs Stanley and cpl, but Stanley dced ! And I have yet to ask him . :/
Btw, super late grats for winning Expert comp :D

Nothing much to say le. Can't wait for Tues to come, because there's a content patch for AuditionSEA ! Woo ~ Wonder what are the 9 new songs coming up. And 100 new moves contain dance moves from Big Bang - Lalala. ok, I am getting so excited la. xD

ok bye.
I gonna do notes now, and read my slides for OP.

Random ~

Hmm, fine day.

Wanted to go out cos someone jio-ed me out. *Coughs*
But I can't go cos already too late and I am lazy :S
Hehe LOL.

Gonna continue searching for my Pri sch friends on FB. So far found 2 only. zzz.
Tata ! ~

My day was rather fine yesterday, cos I went out with my sec sch ppl.

But now, I am so disappointed with myself .
I had landed myself in such a miserable state..


Gone were the cheerful moments..

I believe I am ok..Haha .

Failed 3 and passed 3. So how is it?
If this were my A lvl results, where am I supposed to go?
Ah, if people read this , they will be like "I am worse right! Your whatever so good already." Bla bla. You all won't understand.
I got so worried for Bio until I even went to calculate my overall myself.
What a failure am I. Wasting a space in this JC and worse, wasting the resources of Singapore.

Anyway, pardon me for yesterday.
I can't handle so many blows at one go..

But in the end, I have only myself to blame. It won't be others fault.
Call me ugly, fat , loser, backstabber, betrayer, annoying, brainless, stupid. These are all just facts, aren't they?
So now, I have to learn accept facts.


Wants you back..

Yesterday was FUN ! During GP, we played Taboo ! Shocked huh ? Anyway, I am seriously looking forward to attending GP lessons, until next year when school reopens, then I will sian. -.-
Hmm, gonna get back Bio P1 and CSE later, then Promos result(40%) should somehow be finalised liao. Oh well, I sense a terrible grade for GP.

I like Zhi Hui's response for the Taboo game la! "999" ! LOL. Still very confident somemore. HAHAHAHA. =x
I hate Benjamin! *&%E@_&
How I am related to porn in the first place? LOL. I was like wth wth. And then I laughed as well -_- . Oops.

Today and tmr left. then weekends! I LOVE MY LONG SLEEEEEEPS .
Gonna do I & R now. Yawns..

Got back Bio yesterday!

AND I AM PROUD TO SAY I GOT 15.5/65 FOR PAPER 2 . LOL :D
I already know I would fail, so wasn't as depressed as the others. I think I am only the insane one who keeps laughing at my score. zzz. I needa get full marks for MCQ to pass Bio promos. Wtf. HAHAHAA. Nvm la. S can already.
Anyway I am lousy at Bio , AND IT'S A FACT OK!

Went for Audi competiton few hours ago. And I got kicked out at quarter-finals. -.-
I needa go for it everyday already. AP dropped like what...?! From 1k + to 600+ , today increased back to 700 + .
Hope no CCA later, or else I slaughter them. LOL.
Wonder what to do later. Maybe go lib do slides again liao ~ And also prepare for OP.

Offing now! *Poof*

Yesterday was a good day for me. Not because of Chinese results but, I just dont know la. LOL.
My Monday blues were gone! (Although I kept complaining about it in the morning)

Well, I like to tease Natalie Ng Xiang Ling! HAAAAAAAHEEEEEEEEHOOOOOOOO!
And Ben got owned by me today after I say something to him when he was about to alight from the MRT. It was me and Lin Ken's brilliant idea :D
Lalalala~

Later will be a better day? =/
I am hoping for November to never come.

Nothing to write actually.
Doubt will be sleeping soon, because I am seriously wide awake now. Wtf. Maybe is because of that afternoon nap.
Monday's timetable really sucks . Gonna get back Chinese paper at 3.30pm later.
After that left CSE and Bio le, which are my two hopeless cases anyway. Haha.

Off for now! Bye!

Went to see my nephew yesterday ! So smalllll but cute! Has an angmoh look too . :D
His name is Jaren. *Coughs coughs. Someone has about the same name as him. * :@

..........

My J1 year is coming to an end, soon. And then it will be my A levels. Then NS..then idk.
Time really flies. Sometimes I really just hope that, it never happened, so I won't feel that miserable. But, it is impossible already as I can't possibly revert time.
Maybe Lin Ken was right, I kept living in the past, that's why I hate life now. I hate everything in my JC, i hate the people there, nothing seems to please me there. Sad to say, I have actually not adapted to living in this JC with this class. I can't bring myself to live in the present somehow ..But I am really trying. =/
I know it's about 8-9 months already, but I still miss my sec school class. I really do. I need them to survive. . just like oxygen.

Let me be frank here.
I don't feel myself belonging to this class at all. FYI, it has nothing to do with the recent outing or whatsoever you are thinking of. Perhaps, it's just my way of thinking, or some other factors. Anyway, if you are gonna ask me about this, don't bother. You would have to find the right time to talk to me about this and the right atmosphere. Or else, I would only just say "Nothing."
Bingo. Are people gonna kill me?


The day we separate.

Should I be happy, sad, angry, or worried? Actually I am having all of these 4 feelings now.
Mixed feelings ! By right I should be happy ? Haha.
I don't know how to actually continue writing, because people may become sensitive towards certain words, so I must be very careful with my words.

I am not gonna write my results here, or else people will think I am showing off. -_-
So far so good for me, with 1 fail and 2 passes at the moment . Still got 3 more subjects.
Well, cheer up for those who .... (Yea you should get what I mean. I don't know what words to put in due to my limited vocab , and as I said, I must be careful with words).
There's still hope, so don't give up! I am also praying for you =D
I got so frightened when you teared. =/

Anyway, congrats Amy fo getting top in GP, and Benjamin for getting top in Chemistry !
Some people getting smarter le wor. @_@
And I think I said something wrong in front of few people yesterday.
I asked , "Are you all the passes?"
No, I don't actually mean that. I was wanting to ask if they are the ones whose marks got pushed up by Mrs Chan. Ah, pardon me! T_T (I know she was like giving me that 'WTH' face)

So my day ended quite ok. I feel so contented when someone actually thanked me for comforting him. You're welcome man! But... =/
Bio is doomed anyway, only 1 or 2 pass for Promos. Yay!


1% hope.
Still living?

Getting back results later. I am worried for most of the things except for Chinese and Chem.
You see, I am worried for my Maths. First time. :/

Hais. I feel that I am becoming numb towards certain stuff. That should be a good thing :D
Next monday lessons resume? Oh wth.
Graduation Day for sec 4E/5N later. It seems that time flies so fast..I had mine like just last year, but it felt like yesterday somehow. The bond is still there.


Waiting .

Yesterday..
We were nearly late! The bus was like so slow la. Lol. Ok, never mind anyway. o_O
And we decided to take a risk by alighting one stop earlier, but still, the same -.-

Actually my main purpose of writing this post, is this :
How would you feel when a group of people know how to do a certain thing that you don't know?
You feel so odd. You feel so left out. And that's a full stop.
I won't say anymore. People will start shooting at me somehow, as they may assume stuff.
Humans, what can I do then?

I am off to bed. It's tiring to face these stuff almost everyday.
Everyday in school seems a new challenge for me. -.-


Dreaded so much.

Oh fuck CCAs. I hate them.

P.S: Eh, those people with many CIP points one, big fk ah? So what? Think you can get whatever you wan meh? A lot then a lot la. I don't give a damn if you are in some cca which gives you so much CIP points, which is that fucking CCA which doesn't want me and made me hate them in the end. Gosh.
You know what? Clean my ass and lick my shoes la. HAHA. :D

(NOT REFERRING TO SLK!) --- He entertained me today. LOL.

I already said it will.

And it did happen. =)

Omgzzz. It's raining now.

Anyway, the purpose of me having another post is ....




ENJOY! I LOVE THIS OK.

THIS ALSO SUPER NICEEE :D

I am happy! ^^v
Chem paper YESTERDAY was managable. Realised that I didn't easy. Easy to me , means that I can do every single question without killing any of my brain cells, but I actually left 5 marks blank..soooo, it's not easy! Haha.
And I FINALLY got into semi finals for competiton again, like after so long -.-

Oh, why do people celebrate after Promos? I still have so many things to do, until I can't even celebrate. My life is as hectic as ever, and it was after coming to JC. So JC sucks. Don't go unless you want to end your life early.

Anyway, I guessed I won't be going already. Dinner..? I don't know. (Unless I find a purpose to go)

At least you bothered. (:
I am still waiting.
But I know things wont change.

Nice video! Dean sent me this =D

Something is just bothering but idk what it is.
And I am still feeling so guilty over certain stuff. . =/

Anyway, I am gonna die. My grades, we shall see.
Pathetic noob me. Hais.
Congrats Stanley second in comp . <3

-Off to study Chem ! My lovable subject . LOL.

Nothing to blog about . =/

Just wanna say one thing,

I LOVE 405 TTM. :D

I LOVE 405 TTM. :D

I LOVE 405 TTM. :D

I LOVE 405 TTM. :D

FYI, 405 is my Sec sch class.

I love everybody who loves me! - Stanley

Changed my blogskin! I find it nice, how about you? LOL.
Anyway , had Bio paper yesterday. By right, it's an ok paper. But I did until as if it was a killer paper. Wtf. Give me 10 more mins, and I would have been done. Guessed I spent too much time on a particular question.
Ah, anyway, I aiming for at least a subpass for bio. Please grant me that wishhhhhh. LOL.

Chemistry on Monday! Supposedly my favvvvvvvv subject. Hope the paper on monday won't make me hate Chemistry.
Oh well, all my As are really gone for now. Now only left Chinese and Chemistry.
I am so sad. ):

Thanks Tyrus and Varun! For those words that you 2 have said. :D

How?

I enjoyed myself during Children's Day ! Haha.
Children say....~ GMBoyBoy : Win! LOL. Fun leh :D

Ok, I gotta study Bio now -_-
Talking to Melvyn now! just now talked to Matthew for so long on FB. Haha. xD
Tata!

Omg , I feel like sleeping . zzz.

One is trying to make me laugh.
One is trying to lecture me.
The other one is trying to shoo me away.

So? What do I do?
Thats why I hate interactions. Maybe I should be like the past me.
In primary school, I hardly talk to people. Can ask Jack if don't believe. No one likes me in the past. All shun me away, and I only have a few friends.
Still remember got 1 girl from my pri sch class. I was at the lib. Upon seeing me , run to the other side.
Same girl also, met at some hawker centre. See me le, walk away so fast.

Just do the same, people. It takes time for me to change back , but firstly, the environment needs to change, which is YOU people whom I know.
I really want to try not to talk to anyone. Me and myself. This world will be perfect for me.