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Monday, June 29, 2009 11:23 PM

My Internet is crazy.Wtf.
Everything suddenly loads so slowwww . But other seems ok uh?
Argh, i cant care much. I got many things to do! T_T

Oh come on, my school actually said I had long hair when it's so not long? In sec school, confirm acceptable one. I am getting very irritated by this school already. Everything annoys me. -.-

I want to sleep la. zzz.
Stupid EOM.

ENOUGH. I AM FUCKING ANNOYED ALREADY.
I cant believe you are actually doing this. I am indeed blind.
Just fuck off.

School is starting tomorrow. I am gonna feel better there right? Or worse?

Forgot to blog at 5am just now. zzz.
Mum scolded me so i off-ed comp without blogging.

Anyway, i got eliminated at 4th round again. so wtf right. D:
Nvm, TMR WILL BE ME AS THE CHAMP. LOL. Today I cant on9. x_x
Haiz, school reopening soon...

Tired.
Got eliminated at 4th round. .. zzz.
I need to chiong hw already.

Oh well.
I hate it.

Sometimes , revenge is needed. And in this case, I really need to do it.
And it will be a silent one. I wont possibly avoid that person, I will still be behaving like an angel in front of him/her, but when the time comes, my devil side will appear.
I dont like to revenge. Is you forced me to.
And I definitely love to revenge for my friends as well.

Anyway, people are now revealing their true colours. One by one. Unexpected. Taken aback.

I doubt people will really know me. I have many hidden sides. And most have only seen 1.
The nice and fun LHF.
Dont make me reveal the hidden ones, as some may not be pleasant. Already warned. So dont try.

Hi again.
Today I failed to enter into the competition channel , because it was full. Wtf? D:

Later at night, I will go in by 9pm. Must be the top few to go in, or else no space liao.
Come look for me Auditioners! @_@
And dont disturb my training LOL.

I

WANT

TO

BE

TOP

3

!!

ON PHONE NOW. LOL.

Wah, ytd I went for Expert competiton in Audi, then I can get into top 16 de, BUT THEN I DCED. WTF WTF WTF. I SO CHIONG DE LO OK. Nvm, go practise more! BE TOP 3 ! JY MYSELF! :D

Ok, Steffi! SEE HERE! YOU ROCK. =DDDDDD

ALL FACEBOOK PEOPLE,GO PLAY PIXEL RANGER! VERY FUN!!!! lalala~
And Mafia Wars and Happy Farm and... LOL.

Ok, i am feeling very
UNCOMFORTABLE Now.

BYE.
I LOVE MUMMY. :D

Went to aunt hse again.

Omg, my cousin booked out from army ! Woo ~ :D

And my other cousins are also back from HK! They bought clothes for me, but...the size ...LOL.

Today my mood rather good de. Except that someone is angry with me that I never go his performance right.. -.-

I really cannot go what. Tell you upload , then say i talk cock. youuuuu. IHY. He wants to make me feel guilty.

Ah, I lvl 54 in Audition already. like FINALLY. 3rd time then pass. Phew ~

My Pixel Ranger in Facebook currently first! LOL. I practising Typing Maniac. @_@

SS :

Went for 405 gathering. Hadnt seen some of them for super duper long already.
All still the same lo, Justina is still always making me laugh..
I really miss the sec 4 life. Chinese class with Just especially! Our godmum! D:
History Class also. Mushroom's slacking class. LOL. Still rmb I always talk and talk. -.-
TOH TOH AND LSL.! BUT LSL QUITTING! WTF.

We ate at PastaMania, and then went to a park and chill.
We left at about 10pm, some going home, and the rest of us went Kopitiam and ate again. Lol.
Took bus 16 home.
On my way home, I was actually wondering, when can I ever meet them again...? =/
Nevertheless, I still love you all !
How I wish, we will be sitting in our classroom right now. I miss that atmosphere, so much. ..

Oo, Ching Yee and I are gonna do 4 more new expressions! Yay! Come on , cameras on!
And is someone being so petty? o.o

P.S : Irish's blog got ppl impersonate me and her! -.-
BUT IT'S FUNNY. WHO WAN JOIN IN ? LOL.

Nothing to write about.
Yawns..~

Plan changed again. Wtf.
Simple plan, but I really hope it will work out well. =/

Omfg. I am addicted to Pixel Ranger, Waka-Waka, Happy Farm and Mafia Wars in Facebook.
Shiiiiit.

I have finally finished reading my book . 3 days . 500 + pages. I have broken my own record.
Thanks to only 1 person in this world who have made me find reading an enjoyable thing to do.
The person is....

Wait, should he gain recognition for it? HAHA. =P
I read finish that book during the 3hr Maths training. Wtf. Non-stop. And it's sucky. I dont understand.
Btw the book I read is "Contest" by Matthew Reilly. Again. Superb author. I like his stories! :D
Now to Clive Cussler books. Dont know if I will like or not . Have not start reading..

After Maths , went lib to study with Ben, Nat, Jiaqi and Joc.
I was distracted by someone who looked seemingly familiar to me.
The name somehow appeared in my head. He was Daniel! My pri 6 school classmate.
He still looked the same, no change. But very hardworking I can say.
Actually, I think he recognised me, but also dont dare to say hi to me, as one moment, i saw him starting at me from the corner of my eye. Oh well.. Sorry Daniel . ):

Left lib at abt 6pm. Me , Jq, Nat and Joc kept on gossiping , which is REALLY REALLY a bad thing. Ben had left earlier for his swimming lessons. o.o
Much homework left undone. wtf.




Thanks to them, particularly her. Somehow she brightened up my day.
Tomorrow will be a better day..?

It's still there. That feeling.
I really hope that, on that day, everything would change for the better. I pray, I wish and I hope for it.

I had rather been harsh on words recently, I dont know why.
It's pointless to ask me, as I really do not feel like entertaining questions regarding to my current situation.
One moment I will be ok, the other moment you will see me dazed in my own thoughts.
I am a weird person , I admit. But that doesn't mean I should be ostracized. Get what I mean?

My homework is still lying in a pile, with projects making up the peak.
Tell me, with such people around me, won't they make me distract from my studies?
Prove to me that the things are around me are humans , and they are my friends. Please.

I am starting to give up on life. Dont you all feel very , very tired? I wasn't affected by my studies.
It was people. Humans. Creatures that are of the same type as me.
Creatures because they backstab. They insult. They dont regard your presence.
How would you feel if you were me?..

I am actually undergoing all of these things , ALONE. Maybe 1 or 2 will ask about it.
To me, all seem pretentious. A moment you will be nice, another moment you will be plotting a plan to hurt me. Aren't these creatures vicious?

Behind every smile of mine, there will definitely be hidden feelings.
Yet some people dont understand.
It's like a knife lunged in your chest, and someone is actually trying to pull it out every second, grinning away.
Why...is it actually that fun to hurt people?..

Worse still, they are those whom I ...
Need me to state?

P.S: If you think I were trying to attract attention, I have nothing to say. You shouldn't be my friend in the first place. Eff off please, pollutant.

Went to lib to study againnnn , with the same group! Gz, meibin, me and Ben ! I really did nth leh. Not even a single question. Was crapping and looking for my book. Also trying out meibin's tuition questions.
WHAT THE FUCK. I CANT FIND THAT BOOK IN THE LIBRARY. I BADLY WANT THAT BOOK. NOW I HAVE TO GO ANOTHER BOOK. ZZZ. MY SIX SACRED STONESSSS . T_T

Ok, whatever.
Went home super early today, cos all of us really dont feel like touching any paper and pen. I am also feeling so not motivated la. And I havent plan my essay yet. zzz. I am doing damn slow.
And I feel that the upcoming 405 gathering is gonna fail again. Haiz..
And I am tormented by many stuff recently. One by one yet accumulating..

Sorry, my friend..

=D

Before I start talking about ytd, I HAVE OFFICIALLY READING A BOOK WITHIN A WEEK.
THE BOOK TITLE IS SEVEN ANCIENT WONDERS BY MATTHEW REILLY. IT'S A REAL GOOD BOOK! READ IT! :D
I am gonna continue the series by borrowing the 2nd book tmr! So excited la!

Ok, went out with Ben, Nat and Jocelyn to Orchard! The girls were really...=="
They take so long to choose a thingggg! x_x Me and Ben event went to Kino (smth) to look at some books. Omg, Matthew Reilly de books still got a few more! I WANT READ ALL. So nice lar. Super duper niceeeee. :D
At about 8.30 then we left Orchard. Haha.
Then I rushed off to Mt Faber Safra to see ShiGGa Shay perform!! Hey hello, I FELL DOWN BECAUSE OF YOU, YOU KNOW. -.-
Made me rush there, then in the end , he also havent start! @_@ Btw, the way I fell is like the sliding kick in soccer match. Now got one cut on my palm le la. D:
And wtf, he burped during one of his raps? LOL! I kept disiao him, and he is so badddddddddd. I want to disturb him more. HAHA. Also knew Daryl ( did I spell correctly ? ) from there and 2 more, which i cant recall. x_x
Aft that, wanted to join them for dinner de, but i gotta rush home, so yeah.
Jinny, fucking remember that I fell, just to watch your perfomance. REMEMBER THAT. =P

Fun day for me, but there was also something else that really made me quite down for a moment .. =/
Until now, I dont know . I guessed I said the wrong things.. yet again.
Maybe I should leave you for now, I dont want pester nor irritate you, already..

Haiz.

Oh wait, I just remembered I want to be rant about something.

Hey those fucking people with high ranks in army or whatsoever, my cousin is under one of you this stupid people. You called him stupid? Are you even a guy? Worse still, got brains? The one who scolded people stupid is stupid himself ( or maybe herself. I suspect he is a gay. Whatever that fucker. )
Maybe those so called high rank people ( I cant even bother to check what's the actual name for these brats) are really stupid. They cant stand people who are stupider than them? So call people stupid? LOL. LOSERS MAN. Your children also stupid next time la. Scold my cousin for what? Dont know , then teach la. Scold your children next time stupid meh? Walao. No brains one. Still wan be in charge of army stuff. Disgrace singapore sia. Those under you really damn suay. Have to stand your stupid attitude , and stupid face. HAHA. Can you believe that you are STUPID? My cousin ITE , so what? Bully him? I think he still smarter than you la. MAYBE THAT IDIOT NEVER STUDY ONE. Aiya, be road sweeper la or toilet cleaner la. I hire you clean my shit wan a not? Be army people for what? Somemore slightly higher rank only is it? This type of people show off only . zzz.
人在做，天在看。I believe in karma. Your wife may bear children of low IQ, who knows? If really is, thats your retribution le.
Stupid here and there. Like you very smart like that. Cheebye.

Well, I believe some of the others are nice people there! ~ :D

Saturday already. I cant smile, at all. I dont feel like going anywhere after all.
Not even the upcoming 405 outing. I miss them all, but... I just have this feeling that going there is for nothing. I said it really bluntly, just like that. I dont know what's going on in my mind. Thoughts are racing through my mind every second..

A person's words or actions can make me really ponder what is he/she trying to say. The underlying meaning.
I am just like that..

I am lost in this complex world, yet again.
Are humans born to be like that?

Lost the only hope..

@ 5pm : Met up with KL at Vivo. Chatted at Banquet for rather long. Thanks for the small little gift! :D

After that, at abt 6.15, We went to find the group of people at Carls Jr . Wow, I was quite elated to see all of them. Jo, Uno, Tyrus, Johnny, Eddie, Aloy, Glenn were there. Haha.
Really feel damn awkward there sia. But I would like to thank Eddie and Glenn for actually trying to start a conversation with me. They talked about my cousin, and there were so many things that I duno. Omfg. My jaws dropped , especially about that news. "THAT" one.
Besides that, they also talked about something that is soo...M. =.=
Aloy also intro to me something nice in Carls Jr. Super niceee. $10.30 if i not wrong. Double western or smth like that. Thanks! LOL.
Then I send them off lo. Haha. They obviously had fun at Sentosa. Gooooddd :D

Then went back Vivo to wait for Jin. Aiya, he came 5 mins later. Or else he would have seen them le. Irish and Ji Heon were here too! We walked walked for a while then went Safra le. Jin needs me to bring him there. rofl.
Rotted at Safra for abt 1hr +. I really like Ji Heon's jokes .
This is a "men"(door in chinese). Then what is on top of the "men" ? hymen. LMFAO. HAHA.
And Irish and Jin were so funny la. Walao. Made my pee nearly come out. JH also another one. @_@
Left at abt 9.30 pm , and I am back here. ~!

Lastly, I would really like to thank Eddie alot alot. Somehow. He actually invited me to join with him and others at Sentosa. I appreciate it a lot, but it is too wrong of me to go. Haha. Anyways, if he doesnt invite me again next time, it will be understandable. (:

Too many

unexplainable feelings..

Had Maths AGAIN. And I actually read my book throughout the whole lesson . So nice la ok. :D
Then went with Jun Hao to JP to makan there. He intro-ed me to nice food, and is really tasty! Thanks!
Then went JE lib for PW. In the end, we only did the survey( which I typed out) and did our own work. LOL!

Watched Terminator Salvation on the net. Only the ending then I really watched. LOL. -.-
Still pondering whether to go out with Eddie they all..I mean..it's like....
that feeling.

Anyways watch this MV, nice song! ( Thanks to Weixin for introducing it to me! )
SHINee - Juliette

You

Wont

Understand

I suddenly felt so alone.

Very alone..

Alone to tackle everything..

As if I had no friends..

Needa someone to talk to..

But the time isnt right..

Today's life.
Woo. I post damn early today, cos I am super bored. Haha.
Went Sentosa todayyyy.! Was super late, and I sort of became a bookworm. Thanks to Ben. -_-
Like so few people went only.. Walao. D:
And I was having tummyache, so didnt play much. Haha. I should have gone into the water, like so fun lehhh. I have nth to show! @_@

Went home at about 6+ pm. Aww, had a great time with you all! (:

Audition stuff
Ok, I think , really, not only people from THERE are brainless but also THAT SIDE . I mean it is like, pinpointing at us. Wow wtf. Noob shit ah? Yourself mah? Making a joke out of yourself le. If we noob shit, why you join in the first place? Brainless right? Ok, IQ low de. *laughs*. Learn elementary stuff first before talking to us. Omg. You made my fucking day. LOL.
Noobs noobs noobs. Idiots talking to people with IQ. OMG. And lets compare studies! Throw you into the sea of A lvl stuff and you drown. FUCKING NOOBS. TALKING ABT A**. Win then win la. Shows that you only think of Audition, and you will be blessed with FAILING EXAMINATIONS. :D
Well, I stop le. I dont talk to people like them. My IQ has to stoop so low to talk to them? Walao.
*Makes myself smarter*.

Random here~
Daddy B teach me bad things. T_T
All vulgar learn from him one. It rocksxzxzx. LOL -.-

Eddie asked me out on Thurs. o.o
Who else going ah?
*in a state of shock*

To the one who knows abt it :

跟你说了，我心里也舒服多了。

不用说服我，是不可能的。

....... 总算......

Oh please. Enough is enough.
The word "mugger" is used very very wrongly on me. Define the meaning of "mugger" first.
Hmm, I concluded that muggers keep on doing work and study.

So , is that me? Let me tell you. NO.
What do I do nowadays? Ok, I play a game called AuditionSEA and am chionging to level up. CHIONGING. And it takes fucking long to level.I enlarged it for people who are blind. And I am also planning for my sec 4 class outing, which is quite a mess at the moment.
Moreover, I am always very tired after the Maths training.
I intending to go my friend hse play everyday even. He has Wii !

Now, believe it or not , up to you. You think i like doing homework? Nahhs. I never torch it , it's already very nice of me. =]

Oh wait a minute. Stupid Lin Ken just remind me something.
AYG, so yeah. You all are going. So? Portfolio nice? I concluded that you all have good time management. Not for me though. I need ace most of the tests to balance out . I at least wan Bs for every subject. Or else Promos will kill me. I know some of you all already secure B , so go to school events for all you want. And to me, you are not considered showing off. It just shows that you have very good time management . Bravo. (:
Ya, you all will be missing the tests. I dont know if it's good or bad. Well, qns will always be leaked out somehow..
Btw, again, it's not because I want to "mug" at home, then dont want go for AYG. I dont even have satisfying grades and I finally understood that JC work is not easily to comprehend. It's not like pri and sec school already. Even my Maths ( so called my best subject in the past) are starting to create problems for me. At times, I can even stare at a page for 1hr , trying to figure out what the fucking hell that part is talking about . It's not fun. It's very torturing. I have chosen this path myself..

Too late for regrets..

心碎了。。

Gonna go sleep NOW.
Went lib as usual ytd. What more can I say? Oh ya, Ben is so bad. Make me borrow a book! And force me read somemore. T_T
Nvm, I try read. =P

Well well, TOMORROWWWWW! =D
Btw, why some of my fb photos cannot see one ? zzz.

Oh.

Come come, i got story to share again. Abt a fker. :D
Well, this person really tries his/her luck by actually doing things that he/she thought I wouldnt know! That's so stupid right? And do i bear grudges with him/her? Yes. Really deserve a beating.
And all agree that arrogance doesnt bring one to anywhere right? He/She is so so so .. IQ-lowed. :D
Just a freaking idiot/bastard/bitch/whore/cheebye/bloody asshole/dumbass.
See, so many names for that person right?!

P.S : That person can either be a guy or gal. I dont care abt the gender. Anyone, regardless of a male or female, who pisses me off, will be scolded by me on the blog just like that. All names suit any of the gender. Guy either no balls or girl no cb. Simple. _l_

Morning had the maths training again. Another teacher came in cos the Mr Ba something never come , so he took over. And he quite slack one. Haha. Think is Mr Quah or something like that la. At least he is better. And I actually didnt sleep. LOL. I was smsing ppl throughout the whole lesson. Bored leh, and i cant even understand a fking thing, except some here and there.
Han Kiang is an idiot. zzz.
And I hate elderly who doesnt even have manners. Knn, like their parents never teach them one. Pui.

Wah, I really hate this sudden feeling. I felt like i got pangseh-ed by some people. (Not about the morning one.) D:

Believe in karma

Retribution..

Waa. Really had a great time at Jurong Primary School. I teamed with Agnes to actually lead 2 little girls to the different stations.Actually should be 5 ppl de. LOL. FYI, it is a Science learning program for them, which is quite interesting. o_o
Some of the JJ students become primary school teachers. Haha.
So, some primary school kids are really very irritating. Lol. Especially a guy in Weixin's group.

then at about 5, we left for dinner at IMM. Some ate at Subway, some drank bbt, some ate at duno what place( cant rmb! ). Thanks to Jiaqiiiii. ! Wa, really very nice leh. I didnt know Subway sells such tasty stuff. Next time will come for a 2ND visit. LOL. Btw, it was my first time going Subway to eat. -.-

About 6,went home with a group of them and tada, I am here once again. (:

Wonder.

I feel like .. telling off some people.
Are people really that brainless?

Thanks to SC and Ben for listening me out. But I still feel so .. =.=
Hope that later , it will be better.. Gonna meet Nat and others at JJ later..
Oh well..

去死吧。

我很恨你。

Had Chemistry extra lesson YESTERDAY.
Lasted for abt 3 hrs. Wtf. Both chem tests got back already. Utterly fucking disappointed. All careless mistakes. How am I supposed to forgive myself? spdf, I wrote 3s then 3d. ZZZ. And some more mistakes that will laugh your fucking asses off. Wow.
And can you believe it? You forget a plus = minus 1 mark. zzz.

After class, went to JP wif class for a while. But left before eating, because I needa meet Veeny and the rest for lunch. Already had lunch appointment. (:
So Vivek , Rah, Dah, Veeny and I were at BK chatting non stop, talking about hottest 405 news, and some random stuff. Lol. Sean joined us at a later time.
Then me and Veeny went to Vivo to meet shu, dah and cy. Chatted here and there lo. And shu is still so irritating as ever! Cant I borrow your wife? LOL.
Left the place at 7.45pm , reached home at abt 8.10pm.

I want to go KL hse soon x)
Eddie , follow me okok!

Sadded, because ....

你对我

是这麽冷漠的吗？。。

I didnt do any work. Chill chill! I am gonna be so slow ok. -.-
Later got Chem. Dont even feel like going to that place . Really so dulan la. These people..zzz.

我的生命

只有那么短

难道你要逼到我走投无路吗？

People are getting very annoying, seriously. Really. Some. Ohmyfuckinggod.

Case #1:
I didnt know abt it until ABC told me about it. Hello? What did I do wrong? Whenever I offend people and they are angry, I will know it. This time, it is so fucking unreasonable. And is like, you wan make me guilty right? Actually you have to blame urself for whatever that has occurred. I didnt even make fun of you or anything, can you stop being so petty? GROW UP PLEASE!

Case #2:
-Not mentioning-

Case #3:
What is the problem with you? I am just being a neutral party.
Whatever you are thinking, is just shit. NPNT.

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Went to lib today. When I arrived, meibin and Guan Zhi were about to leave. So left me and Ben there. Taught him functions. Teach until I become blur! @_@
AND AND AND, the quizzes on facebook about sex stuff, IS ALL HE GIVE ME ANSWERS ONE. HE IS THE PERVERT! =x
For some questions, he go snatch the mouse and clicked on those very perverse answers! Walaooooooo.!
Left the lib @ abt 8.05pm. And no, I wont kill you for letting me go late. HAHA.

At Tekong, you will see 3 types of stars...~
Nice one !

Ask me out anyone ! ~

Unexplainable phenomenon.